These days, I often get and feel worry, scared, and fear easily. I think about everything. About the next semester which is going to be more and more challenging, about looking for an internship in the midst of a very competitive and challenging situation, whether or not I can renew my scholarship, about my future, my job, my career, etc.... I am also anxious thinking that I might not get good result from the last semester. I did try very hard, I studied like I've never studied before, but I still feel so stupid and lag behind.
Senin, 14 Januari 2013
This is the English version from my previous post titled Kotbah Pdt Gilbert Lumoindong di Paris. Ps. Gilbert is an Indonesian preist who was invited to preach in Paris Centre Chretien, Paris, yesterday. Somehow I am tempted to translate and rewrite this again in English, because the sermon was so powerful that I’d like to share with you (if you happen not to speak Indonesian). The sermon is still the same with the Indonesian version, however if you read both of my posts and understand both languages, there are some parts which are not the same :p
I would also like to notify you that since I rewrite this sermon, I have modified it, in the sense that there is some additional information or explanations (for my English speaking friends) which are common in my country but you don’t find in the Western culture or countries. So rather than just a mere report of posting, this note also become one of my reflection note. I put also some of my comments and my knowledge based from what I read, I experienced, or what I heard from friends. The essential and the core point of the sermon, however, remains the same.
Minggu kemarin, gue baru aja menghadiri kebaktiannya kotbah Pdt Gilbert Lumoindong di Paris Centre Chrètien, Paris. Gue berangkat ke sana bareng bbrp orang dari PMNI alias Persatuan Masyarakat Nasrani Indonesia. Total ada 9 orang en 2 mobil, 1 mobil terdiri dari 1 keluarga. Gue tergerak buat tulisin kotbahnya karena powerful banget bow !! mungkin buat temen2 di Indo, kotbah ini kagak begitu powerful-powerful amat (yah sebenernya semua kotbah gak pantes dikategorikan powerful ato gak powerful ye, tapi yaaa you know what I mean lah hehehe), tapi buat gue yang udah lama gak ‘makan’ makanan rohani dari Indonesia, rasanya kaya dikasih « santapan » yang lezat banget gitu loh.
Btw sebelum mulai nulis kotbah, gue pingin sharing sedikit kebaikan Tuhan yang bikin mujizat sampe gue bisa ke Paris dengan harga murah meriah ahueheaheuehoauo.
Rabu, 02 Januari 2013
I dedicated this post (and maybe the following posts after this) to everyone who wants to know more about Christianity belief, but particularly for my friends in the Geneva Graduate Institute. I am more or less intrigued to write down about this post, since I was often asked by my friends about my faith. I find that it is not easy, and in fact, to be really challenging as being confronted about the personal values and belief that I have. As some of you have known, I am Christian. And what I mean by Christian is that I’m not just going to church every Sunday. Being a Christian also means that I uphold the values and the way of life which Christ has taught me in the Bible. Somehow, I feel that being Christian means that we are expected by the society to act flawless, always full of love and forgive what others do wrong to you. I shall explain later about this below.
Selasa, 01 Januari 2013
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013 !!!
Finally, after a looong time since I updated my blog the last time due to the busy semester, now I have so much free time to write. Many things happened to me in this year. I tremendously thank God for everything in the year 2012. I feel that the time flies so fast and I don't want to let go of 2012 :( The year of 2012 was the year of promotion and multiplication because of God’s favor indeed….
Not more than half a year ago, I was only an ordinary Indonesian girl who thought that she know everything, even tough she knew very little. I was always longing to go and live abroad and I tried many times to apply to go abroad: so many programs were being offered for students, like studying master, exchange students, doing research, etc. All were to no avail. By the time I applied for master study in Switzerland, I already given up my hope to go abroad. By that time also, God miraculously worked in me, He disciplined me to let go off all my flesh ambitions and only to rely on His way. Being accepted in Switzerland to study Master of Development Studies (MDEV) in Geneva was beyond my expectation indeed.
In Geneva, I met a lot of great people and great friends. It is such an opportunity to study in a very academic and challenging surrounding. The people are so nice, so helpful, so unique among one another, and also so fun to be with. From them, I learned a lot of things. I listened to a lot of stories, lots of experienced, and also read many books I’ve never known before from other famous authors whose names I’ve never heard.
It was not that last year went smoothly without any challenges and difficulties. Despite feeling so happy and blessed to be in Switzerland, I also found it’s a little bit difficult to adapt with the new surroundings. New habits, new cultures, new foods, how to make a bank account, an insurance, a residence permit, how to do shopping, everything on my own. Not to mention the language barrier that I need to practice everyday. Gratefully my friends are very supportive, and definitely I was not alone facing all this :D Gratefully that I never feel homesick nor experiencing a great culture shock until this moment. Countless time I felt worthless, stupid, and less experienced compared to other friends who are studying MDEV. I felt so small, the academic demand and standard is sooo high that I really wanted to give up and pack for good to Indonesia :p
But also during those times, I can tell that God’s hand was upon me and be with me. I felt that my faith was being so deeply stretched and enlarged. It was the first time ever in my life, that I could no longer depend on my own strength, my own knowledge and capability. God taught me to be totally depend on Him on every aspect in my life: campus’ life, job, future, financial, health, friendship, including love life too :p I’ve never felt sooo humbled before like this before in my life! But I know that these are all for my good :)
I plan to write at least one post everyday, since I “owe” this blog to keep updating my journey and experiences. And since I received a lot of request to write my blog in English, so that my non-Indonesian friends can read them also, I guess that my next posts will be written in English. (Buat temen2 Indo, gapapa yah hohoho. Sekalian juga buat belajar Inggris kan :p).
Oh yes, and I am sooo happy because my first book finally has been published!! The title is Breakthrough Seorang Jomblo. It's a story about my testimony how I encountered my faith and decided to accept Jesus as my personal God and Savior. You can get it in the Christian book store VISI, the book is published by Pionir Jaya publisher. Again I received some request to translate it into English. I deeply thank you all who showed a deep interest to read my book, hopefully I will have enough time to do the translation :) Hopefully also, during this winter break I can start to write my second book.
To end this post, there is one song from Hillsong that I recently like to sing, titled Love You So Much. God is faithful indeed in the last year. His love endures forever!