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A beautiful girl in His eyes. A girl with a BIG dream, BIG vision, with BIG passions for her town. Interested in a lot of things. Talkative and longing to travel in many new places. Is thinking hard what she can do to her country.

Minggu, 16 September 2012

Days in Geneva (part 4): Spiritual Dryness & other activities

I've just read my friend's post in her blog "Serving as A Youth Consellor" (you can read it here: http://febeamelia.blogspot.ch/2012/09/serving-as-youth-counsellor.html). Somehow I just feel that I am in a condition where I am longing for Christ more and more, a condition where my spiritual human is crying desperately to serve Him more, to serve and to be involved with lots of young people. 

I've just stayed for 3 weeks and more in Geneva, but to be honest, my heart and spiritual human already crying, asking, and begging for God deeper than this. 
The church to which i'm going to doesn't give me spiritual and joyful sermon or praise & worship like what I had in Indonesia. Don't get me wrong... I don't have any intention to compare any churches (since I'm also going to the same congregation of church like my church in Indonesia), I just feel that the churches in Indonesia is becoming more and more alive now. I can truly feel God's presence & how His working hands amongst many youth people in sooo many areas: music, literatures, art, technology, etc. Here, my church in Geneva doesn't have many young people, so there are not many activities for young people as well. It is totally different with so many activities like I had in my church in Indonesia.

Wow, those new university students in Indonesia must be very lucky. Maybe they do not know how "lucky" and blessed they are to be taken care of with such spiritual activities: sermons, brotherhood & sisterhood events, youth camp, praise & worship session. They don't know how much they are so loved. God loves them by sending people like young people who are willing to volunteer, to give their time to create an event for them. While here I am, longing for such event, or at least to be involved as the committee team! 

For a splash of moment I was wondering and asking God in my heart, why am i so far away from home? I am so longing and dreading to be involved in youth ministry. Why am I here, in Geneva, thousands of mile away from home? What is He doing in my life? What are You going to teach me, Lord? For a splash of moment also, I remembered the book written by Ci Grace Suryani Halim, titled "Tuhan, Kenapa Aku Harus ke China?" (God, Why Do I have to go to China?). In that book, Ci Grace wrote that there were moments when she felt that God brought her into the "desert", a desert of loneliness, a desert when she feels despair. There were moments when Ci Grace also dreading and looking desperately for spiritual food: a living sermon, praise & worship session, ministry, etc. I feel exactly the same like what Ci Grace felt back at the moment. As an ilustration, my spiritual human's situation now can be described like a skinny dog who eat a bone merciless-ly, looking for and enjoying every moment of flesh-left trace in the bone. Like a deer longing for a river, so is my heart longing for His presence. 

But this is also time when I learn so much to be totally depend on Him, not on human power, not to mention my own power. I learn so much that it is in the middle of desert when I can find God more. I realise that there is not a thing I could do without His help. Holy Spirit once again reminds me of all the things God has done in my life. 4 years ago, when I pursued my bachelor degree in Bandung, I barely knew anybody. But all those time He has been faithful. At the end of my study, I've known lots of friends across Indonesia, while before i only used to know friends in my hometown. Now in the first 3 weeks in Geneva, I already known lots of people coming from different countries with different backgrounds, also speaking in many languages. I believe that the same God who made me gone through the last 4 years in my bachelor degree, will also help me passing this harsh and unpredictable moments during completing my master degree in Geneva :) 

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Oke, cukup segitu melow2nya hehe. Seharian ini gue banyak jalan2 di Geneva heheheh.

Pertama, gue jalan-jalan ke Festival Food & Wine. Jaraknya cuma 13 menit naik kereta dari pusat kota. Kereta disini serba cepat en tepat waktu bow.... bayangin, mau pergi ke tempat yang jauh cuma ditempuh 13 menit doang naik kereta! gue pikir bakalan nempuh minimal 30 menit or 1 jam. Padahal jaraknya tuh kira-kira sejauh Purworejo-Magelang (dikira-kira sendiri ye haha). Di tempat yang gue kunjungin, namanay Russin, kita bisa liat banyak ladang anggur. Ada anggur ijo, anggur item. Terus disana ada festival makanan juga. Well, gue sih ngebayanginnya pasti bakalan ada buanyak makanan, tapi ternyata cuma sedikit.... n kalo kita denger kata 'festival', pasti kebayang banyak orang. Tapi pas gue dateng, orang yg dateng ga terlalu banyak. Bisa dibilang sepi lah untuk ukuran orang Indonesia hahahah. tapi mungkin karena gue datengnya siang hari, sedangkan festival itu berlangsung sehari semalam sampe besok (hari Minggu) jam 12 siang. Di Russin, gue nyicipin beberapa jenis makanan baru, seperti polonait (pancake tebel yang ditaburi gula putih halus), bubur jagung (i forgot the name, haha!), en diot (sosis yg gede banget en panjang). Gue juga minum sedikit wine.

Sehabis itu, gue sama temen2 ikutan UN Tour. Coz hari itu, UN alias kantor PBB lagi open for public. Yeaaay ^^ Buanyak buanget orang boooow..... kita bisa masuk en liat2 gedung UN, dalemnya kayak apa. En you know what, gedung univ gue itu dekeeeet banget sama UN!! Sebelah2an sekaligus seberang2an.... Btw, ngomong2 soal univ, jangan ngebayangin kalo univ di Geneva itu berbentuk gedung besar nan tinggi & megah seperti halnya gedung univ di Indonesia. Universitas disini justru terkesan simpel & apa adanya.... terkesan sederhana lah. lebih tinggi daripada rumah biasa sih, tapi gak semegah bangunan di Indo. En biasanya lokasi fakultasnya itu pada nyebar, gak ngumpul di satu gedung. Univ gue aja punya 7 lokasi yang berbeda, en 2 di antaranya itu deket banget sama UN ;D  

And in the evening, i had a boat tour on the Geneva lake!! ^^  there were 8 of us, each of us are from different countries: Singapore, Philipine, Norway, Hungary, Swiss, Ghana, Japan, and me from Indonesia. The cruise was great!! We drank champagne, ate biscuits, listened to the disco and beating songs, danced, and chatted. The scenery was awesome :D 

Ya udah sih mau sharing gitu doang hahaha. Sorry i can't upload pictures.... Karena:
1. Sekarang kalo pergi2 gue jarang bawa kamera. Entah kenapa gue jadi gak demen jepret sana jepret sini (yang katanya khas orang Indo banget :p). Gue lebih seneng jalan2 en menikmati pemandangannya, enjoying me time.

2. Gue lupa bawa card reader buat masukkin foto dari kamera ke laptop. Bisa sih foto pake blackberry.... tapi males mindahinnya, en itu juga bikin BBM gue lemot :p  And btw, sekarang gue jadi males BBMan hahaha. So, buat temen2 di Indo.... kalo bbmnya gak gue bales.... mohon dimengerti ya... not because i don't want to reply you, but because sometimes I feel i'm annoyed. The first time i activated my blackberry, i got bombardized with so many BBMs, asking what I'm doing & how i'm doing. I feel so touched & loved by all of you, but oftenly i just don't have enough time to reply you all one by one. Selain itu mungkin karena gue udah kepengaruh juga sama kultur barat yang sangat menghargai privasi & me-time B-)  As you know, orang disini hampir gak ada yg pake bb hahaha. So i use blackberry mostly to keep in touch with my family & my close friends in Indo.

3. Adanya penghargaan yg tinggi terhadap privasi juga satu hal yg sangat gue sukai dengan gaya hidup disini. Disini, orang bebas jalan2 sendirian, makan sendirian, blanja sendirian, main ke taman sendirian, nonton sendirian. Gak kayak di Indo, yang mana kalo kita jalan sendiri sering merasa aneh or malu or takut karena tatapan orang banyak. takut dicap gak punya temen lah, gak laku lah, ansos lah, dll. Halah, peduli amat sama semua itu!! I don't know apakah kalian pernah/sering mengalami hal itu. Kalo gue sih sering ngrasa gitu di Indo. Rasanya semua mata menatap gue kalo gue jalan sendirian di mall or makan sendirian di resto. Pernah ada temen yg bilan gini, "Hah Niiiik... Kok lu bisa makan sendirian sih?? Gue sih gakmau. Mending gue bawa pulang makanannya daripada makan sendirian!" or "Lu nonton/jalan sendiri??? Kenapa gak ngajak temen?? Kok lu bisa sih jalan sendirian?? Gak takut ya?" o____0 sedangkan disini.... gue merasa bebas en lepas untuk melakukan semuanya itu hahaha. Pernah sekali waktu gue cerita soal hal ini sama temen gue yg orang Jerman, soal individuality vs collectivity (both has its own positive & negative aspect). Dia bilang sesuatu yang selamanya akan gue inget:


"You know Louisa, a person who can not enjoy the time to be alone, maybe because he/she is actually afraid to be alone. Everyone should know how to cherish the time on their own.... sometimes we just need to be alone. We need times only for ourselves."
Oke, that's all from me :) Udah ngantuk, mo bobo....  I thank you for all your prayers. It's the thing that make me able to go all through this! 

Nonik. 

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